You know, for how often I say “I’m lonely” on this site, you’d be surprised to learn I never say it in real life. I keep myself together pretty well for the most part. I’m such an emotional person that I had to learn to keep up appearances so I wouldn’t end up having a mental breakdown. My friends know I’m a bit sad and want to start working and begin my life, etc. But I don’t think they understand the extent of my loneliness. I put up a great front, I do. I wish I could be more honest with the people in my real life. Maybe then I’d have someone lying here with me…
I’ve also been thinking a lot about freshman year of college, about how different my life would be if I had said yes instead of no, if I had been less hesitant, if I’d been more mature. I think a few poor decisions for major circumstances has seriously changed my life for the worse…
